do not let me go, I say to You,
but often it is I, not You, who is trying to let You go.
no matter how deep or how far I run away, You are there,
waiting, not judging, forgiving, only loving.
unreachable, you often seem,
but in the deepest of our hearts, You choose to dwell.
a knowledge beyond comprehension, a grace so amazing,
how poor am I that I often doubt Your providence.
When darkness filled my days and doubt filled my heart,
I cried, “Where are You?”, but there was no answer.
Nights remain in their darkest, days become as dark as the night,
and all were silent.
Now the sky just began to clear up,
As the sun rose in the morn,
He proudly smiled at me and showed me some moving images,
a re-play of my days in the past
When I was sad,
He gave His shoulder for me to cry on and silently cried with me
When I complaint about life,
He embraced me, and with patience, silently listened to my complaints
When my burden felt too heavy for me to bear,
He silently carried my burden too from behind
I see now, behind all that silence,
I was incapable of realizing
that He never let me down.
In that silence, He is ever present.
takkan pernah lelah aku mencari
tuk dapatkan sebuah makna
bukan dari buah pohon pengetahuan
tetapi dari Sang Pencipta yang menghidupkan
dibalik ragaNya yang biru secara kasat mata
di situlah sumber cinta abadi semata
sebuah cinta ilahi yang merasuki sukma
membalut hati yang tersayat oleh sengsara
di dalam keheningan yang mengangkasa
akhirnya kutemukan pertemuan mesra,
antara pribadi dan penciptanya
satu pesannya: hidupilah cinta.
"Sia-sia dan tak berguna engkau!"
demikian mereka mengejekku.
Kering, bagai sungai tak berair di hulu.
Gersang, bagai tanah tandus di musim kemarau.
Itulah aku
menunggu air hujanMu
JanjiMu menjadi sumber pengharapan.
Ingin kurasakan setitik penghiburan,
biar semua pengejekku menanggung malu.
Kucoba merajuk dengan Yang Maha Tahu.
